With the new baby, I haven’t felt like writing much. I’m coming out of this experience with a keen appreciation of doing nothing but looking at a baby, feeling his downy head under my chin, feeling him rustle and rumble and toot. What an absolute delight.
So I was listening to a podcast this morning with John O’Donahue talking about the inner landscape of beauty. He’s an Irish poet, former priest and a part of that great Celtic tradition of mysticism, spoken and sung language.
The thing that struck me today was something he said about the spirit not being allowed out for public view. By spirit, he doesn’t mean woo-woo stuff. He’s talking about that little germ within us that cannot be erased. The usness in us. That bit of god.
It can be warped, it can be manipulated, it can be pushed so far underground in a human being that it doesn’t emerge if at all in public.
But it persists. I know this because I’ve experienced it.
I have a little germ. My spirit is stubborn and my father didn’t like it. I believe he was a fact-based organism. He could relate to sin (confession once a year), but I believe the spirit, the music of the spheres was beaten out of him, or teased out of him, or simply not recognized by him. How horrible.
We would get a little glimpse of my Dad’s spirit when he got older or maybe when we got older and could recognize it. He was a damaged soul. But that’s the thing. We are all damaged one way or the other but we don’t have to give up our spirits.
That little germ, like a tiny boring worm is right there. I call on it when I write. I call on it when I work with people. I call on it when I am with people I trust. Now that’s an interesting statement. I suspect I’m not the only one.
That little germ is the truest expression of ourselves and I think it is what we mean when we talk about the God in each of us.
We now live with constant stimulation if we want. Stimulation without meaning is bullshit. It’s like a 24 hour orgasm; it’s exhausting and we cannot get enough.
Without all that noise, visual and aural, who are we? Did our spirit move on to more hospitable hosts? Nope. Your spirit hangs in and if you can shut up your head, shut your mouth, turn off the radio, podcast, Facebook, Instagram, cellphone and TV off, you might find the little creature curled up in a ball at the bottom of your psyche saying over and over again “excuse me, excuse me”.
We can’t all have a grandbaby but we can visit our spirits whenever we want. Shhh, quiet now.
“Nothing in all creation is so like God as stillness.”
― Meister Eckhart