To ruck or not to ruck

Yesterday I was going into town with Rob to take Emily and Joe to Brunch and then to Pike Place Market for flowers and the Asian Art Museum for the Tabaimo exhibit.  It was Em’s 30th and we were going to wrap it up.

I woke up with this crap again that I seem to have had for a year—sore chest, coughing, head full.  We decided we shouldn’t go because the last thing Em needs is a bug.

So on this grey rainy day I sat with my husband on the couch and watched rugby.

Rugby!!!  Wherein a group of burly men, and I mean huge men with no padding or helmets meet in the center of a field, hunker down with their heads in the middle and just strain against each other moving first one way and then the next and sometimes around in a circle.

A rugby scrum looks like a single organism attempting  locomotion, but it is many organisms with their own agendas attempting to get in position to get the ball.

scrum

Oh yes, there is a ball.  The ball is introduced into the scrum or should I say under the scrummers by the scrum half.  There are other positions but my favorite is the hooker.  He reaches into this boiling mass and extracts the ball for a run.

“A ruck is a phase of play where one or more players from each team, who are on their feet, in physical contact, close around the ball on the ground. Open play has ended. Players are rucking when they are in a ruck.”

This about sums it up.  “Players are rucking when they are in a ruck.”

Sounds like the definition of life doesn’t it?  I’ve been in a ruck before and am actually in a ruck now.  I’m all rucked up.

That’s all for now folks.

Uncle Jim and the Gang

This is a picture of Uncle Jim and his kids and my brother and sisters.

Palio,Jim,Chris Urq?Kitty, John,?,Jeff,Mary Ann,John,Nancy Grange

From the top, sister Chris is sitting on the horse (was that Paleo?)  Was he  on a paleo diet or was his name Palio. Who knows?  Then the man holding the reins is Uncle Jim, in front of him exposing his belly is Jeff, next to Jeff is Maryann, in front of Maryann is John, next to John is Nancy and behind Nancy is me oh best beloved.  To my left is my brother John holding my sister Jane.

Uncle Jim was the best in the West although he scared me a little as he actually was one of the few adults who paid attention to children.  He listened and questioned and made us squirm.

Look at my goofy brother John.  He was a cut-up.  I love this picture because it captures perfectly a certain time and place and feeling.  Going to Uncle Jim’s house was going to the country (Vancouver, Washington).

I sometimes feel as though linear time is misleading.  Its kind of like tree rings—you can count the rings and say oh so now I’m seventy and so this picture was sixty years ago.  But I can also bounce back sixty years and see my lovely cousins’ faces and laugh at my brother John and smell the hay and the manure and the feel of the apple tree bark.

We are everywhere in time.  I can follow the rings in my body.

P.S. I love you all.

Honest Labour

coal

Today I was driving back from a doctor’s appointment and was listening to an interview on American Public Radio with a twenty year old coal miner with two young children and a sixty something year old coal miner.  They were talking about the coal industry.

The young man  has worked in the mines since he was 17 and wants to continue to work in the mines so that he can provide for his family.  He voted for Trump because Mr. T promised to rejuvenate the coal industry.

The older guy has worked in the mines all his life.  He made a good living, his kids went to school, he lived comfortably.  He was diagnosed with black lung in his fifties but couldn’t quit—needed to keep up with payments, and now in his sixties will die of black lung. He voted for Trump as well because he felt like he spoke for the regular man but now he has doubts because it looks like his health insurance is going away and he needs his medicine. He said “…if I was starting over as a young person, if I knew someone who was going in the mines, I would just say run, run.”

I lived with a coal mining family in the 60’s when I was training for Vista.  I lived (for a few nights) in the house with another Vista and a Grandma and Grandpa in one room (their front room) and listened to Grandpa cough up his lungs into a coffee can through the night.  I wandered in their neighborhoods under the slag heaps.  When it rained the run-off was black.

I thought of him as I listened to this story on radio.   I cried and then I got angry.

I find liberals as maddening as conservatives.  Conservatives want to fuck you and liberals want to judge you for getting fucked.  I know, I know.  It’s not all conservatives and it’s not all liberals.  What I am tired of is the judgy, judgy stuff.

I became really angry at Rob because of what I took to be a rather dismissive critical response to the young man.  He couldn’t, perhaps put himself in that young man’s shoes.

This kid was 20, looked 15, has lived in mining country his whole life and sees it as his only option.  Is he unschooled?  Yes.  Is he by nature stupid?  Maybe. I don’t know.  Can he not imagine a life outside of the one he’s always lived and his father and grandfather before him?  No, he cannot.

But nothing will change this kid’s worldview until someone puts the energy, time and money into his future.  Help him imagine a different future.  Where are the leaders who could do this?

Well, fellas—you have your choice.  Energy company execs and conservative politicians who will use you until there is nothing left; or the educated liberals who view you with disdain, making fun of your ignorance, your appearance, your lack of sophistication. If I were you, I’d go with the ones who talk like you do, who seem to have similar values (good old boy Trump), and can offer you employment and a future (seemingly) now.  It’s all fake, of course;  you are the rubes and they are the ruling class.

What if you’re just a regular Joe?  It used to be all right to be a regular Joe.  You go to work, you do your job, you tend to your friends and family and your God if you have one and that’s enough.

No children’s books are about lawyers or politicians or real estate tycoons or hedge fund managers. Kids want to be firemen, policemen, teachers, nurses, heavy machinery operators, farmers.  Kids want to “do” things.

We romanticize these folks, we call them our heroes, but do we value them?  Do we say—thank you for putting food on my table, thank you for milking our cows, thank you for mining the coal that warms our hands and feet on a cold night.  No.

We need regular Joes (and Janes for that matter).  We can’t all be bankers and brokers, tech geniuses and hedge fund managers.  We are so enthralled by vast money and success that we rarely think of the giant pyramid that supports the rich.  The carpenters and miners, soldiers and teachers and gardeners and nannies and on and on.  Their work makes possible the enormous wealth and prosperity of our country.

Where are our leaders?  Where are the people who instead of seeing only the tip of the pyramid, can see the whole beautiful thing each layer resting on the next.  Each dependent on the next and so, equally valuable.

When the worm turns and coal is no longer viable, those people, those slag heaps and desperate towns will be abandoned and the money folks will simply move on.  No retraining, no health care,  no superfund sites, no restoration, no care at all. Do you remember Bhopal where a chemical plant exploded and blinded people in the surrounding communities?  Dow threw some money at the problem and left.

Responsibility is a core value.  Take responsibility for the harm you’ve done.  Clean up your mess.

We need to care for the old man who has destroyed his health warming our homes. We need to care for the young man who sees no other future.  Teach him.  Show him. Can we help him and others like him develop new skills that would allow him his work ethic and not harm the world?  Of course we could.

Will we?

 

The Japanese Kitchen

Sue mentioned an exhibit at the Seattle Asian Art Museum but I forgot what it was.  I went on their website and found this wonderful artist, Tabaimo.  I ‘m sure that this is who she was referring to.

After two hours in bed looking at her work I can’t wait to go to the Museum and see this stuff in person.  What a joyous, disturbing surprising artist.  If you can’t go to the Museum, check her out on YouTube.

I love to be surprised by art. I was trying to think of how she made me feel and the word I came up with was disquieting.  Her art shakes me up; she can go from delightful to frightening in a minute.   Art is a gift you didn’t even know you wanted.

Art is revelatory.  But not all revelations are comfortable.  She is not a comfortable artist.  Check this out:

the-foot.

Bones give birth to sinew, gives birth to a foot and then to a flower.

She created this animation that somehow implies that there are life forms beneath the waves.  I’m not sure I know what that means exactly but when I looked at the animation it seemed that she was talking about the artist’s unconscious giving birth to these strange concoctions, these limbs and people and lumps of matter that emerge from the water.

Hard to put this into words. She takes the expected, the world as it is seen by most of us (a cupboard is just a cupboard after all) and tweaks it.

Find out what she’s cooking up in the Japanese kitchen.

Please let me know what you think after you look at her work.

He is anti-matter

I put off and put off writing.  I stare at the screen and nothing floats to the surface.  Actually when I wrote that I had something float to the surface.  I saw it on Facebook the other day on a site called I Fucking Love Science.

It was a picture of a strange and wonderful creature that lives on the Pacific floor.  It looks like a puffball—like a dandelion gone to seed, but it’s a glorious sea creature.  What???

This is a sea creature filmed by NOAA in the Pacific.

fishy

This is a puffball.

dandelion

How wonderful the world is.  Organisms fill every space.   Crystalline structures.  Ocean creatures look like stars, stars look like flowers, flowers look like minerals, and minerals look like our cell structure.

It makes sense.  We are all matter.  We all matter.  Made from matter.  We are the spinning out of matter.

Hey, don’t blame me.  As Trump goes lower, I go higher.

For your amusement/amazement, I give you this:

microscopic-image

 

 

Apple Tree

treeI pruned my little apple tree in front of the house.  What a strange misshapen tree it was when I first acquired it.  It was on sale, rejected and dejected.

What drew me to this little tree besides the price?  It was full on one side and flat on the other.  I thought, hey, perfect, I can put it next to the house and it won’t be too overwhelming.  It was also kind of low slung like gangster pants with branches emerging only 3 feet from the ground.  So kind of a dwarf apple tree.  You get the picture.

I’ve had it now for about six years and every year I mess with it a little, I shape it a little.  I love it a lot.  I feel like I’m getting to know this little tree so that I don’t see it’s peculiarities, but only it’s possibilities.  Actually, I see that it’s peculiarities are it’s possibilities.

Just like people.

 

 

Corn cakes and Pork Chops

The weather here is abysmal.  I know, I know, it’s so much worse other places—snow, hurricanes, tornadoes, drought.  Please indulge me for a brief moment.  Living here is like living inside a damp sponge with the lights out.  Predominant colors are grey and green.  This weather drives you to develop strange hobbies.  Moss weaving, the collecting of rare molds, making little raincoats for chickadees, forcing your dog to go for a walk knowing as you’re tugging on his collar that he won’t go and you don’t want to.

The weather here reminds me of the place called limbo or at least as I understand limbo when I was a kid trying to penetrate the arcane description of a place where unbaptized babies went.

Limbo (Latin limbus, edge or boundary, referring to the “edge” of Hell) is a speculative idea about the afterlife condition of those who die in original sin without being assigned to the Hell of the Damned.

Now, I don’t know about you but I don’t want to be assigned anywhere, especially not the Hell of the Damned.  However, this rainy, foggy, misty miasma feels like I have been assigned, or consigned or need to become resigned to being in the Devil’s waiting room.

What to do when you are in the Devil’s Waiting Room…

  1.  Look for the exit sign.
  2. Watch mindless TV
  3. Read centuries old magazines
  4. Make potholders out of moss and sticks and old magazines
  5. Get out there and make someone happy
  6. Make corncakes and serve them with pork chops.  I just love that last sentence—corn cakes and pork chops.  That could be a song.

I feel better already.  Tonight I am going home and making corn cakes.  That’s the beautiful thing about whining.  You get bored and start thinking of stuff that will make you happy and miracle of miracles, the fog lifts, the miasma dispels, and Limbo is simply the anteroom to somewhere else.

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